New York Times Portraits of Grief

John R. Cruz

John R. Cruz wasn't one of those guys who proposes marriage to his girlfriend, forks over the ring, then waits to be informed when and where to attend the wedding.

He had proposed to his bride, Susan Fereira, only two weeks before the disaster, when they had both flown out to California for a wedding. So, the whole weekend before the terrorist attack, the lovebirds took delight in discussing the complex details. It had to be at Sacred Heart Church in Yonkers, where Ms. Fereira lived. It would certainly be a large wedding: her family is Portuguese and his is Puerto Rican, with many of his relatives living around Lakewood, N.J.

Their friends from Morgan Stanley would be there, because that was where they had met, and where she still works. And certainly there must be a contingent from Cantor Fitzgerald, where Mr. Cruz was in the accounting group on the 101st floor of 1 World Trade Center. On Monday, Sept. 10, they set the date: Sept. 21, 2002.

Now she remembers all the good things. For example, "how he carried a Bible," she said, "and read a passage every morning on the way to work."